No…No and… No

We receive a lot more No’s in life then Yeses (please excuse an spelling errors right there).

Job hunting is probably the most frustrating venture one will embark on. It literally will make you feel like a very small fish in a very large pond. E-mail after E-mail will contain….”thank you…BUT…..

It becomes discouraging and often hurts because it feels like rejection….I’m trying to take Ash’s advice and remember….”maybe the no will led you to better opportunities.”

I know that I didn’t get the really “plush” job in Lakeland because there was more opportunity in Nashville. I know I’m constantly rejected by church after church because either I am not ready or there is better opportunity out there (maybe a lil’ bit of both).

No can actually be a Yes in disguise….it could be the place holder for something much better.  Not only that but it makes the Yeses in life, just that much better. The best “Yes” I ever received is about to be my wife in less than a month. Thank God for the No’s I received from other girls when I asked for that relationship, or that date, because otherwise I would have missed out on the most amazing woman in the world.


Pondering God’s grace

Pete Wilson said something that just rocked my world yesterday. I’m sure I myself have said it before and have most definitely learned it at some point, but it never clicked with me like it did yesterday.

For people like me who spend a lot of time in their own head and think a lot….sometimes thoughts can stray and end up in places you never wanted your mind to travel too. I struggle with my thought life and for me there is this constant feeling of guilt and frustration that I allowed myself to go there in a thought. However, Pete mentioned that “not only does God know every thought you have had in the past, but he knows thoughts and words that have not even been conceived in your mind nor uttered off of your tongue.” WOW, God already knows the thoughts and words I will speak, the mistakes I will make, and he still loves me……playing off of a statement Pete said, “Your value and worth will never depreciate in God’s eyes.”

My mid 20’s crisis

Warning: this post is honest

Tonight I was at crosspoint and Pete shared this message entitled “empty promises.”  There was this one train of thought that rocked my world. He discussed the idea that a lot of 22 and 23 year olds are feeling the pressure, depression, anxiety and frustrations that come along with a “mid-life” crisis. Yet they (I) am so young and there is no reason to be experiencing these pressures at our age. Pete said that the reason is because “our society has become so performance driven.”

I finally feel that I can put into words the thing that has been bothering me; I have made success and credit my idols. I have this huge desire to succeed and be known. As Pete pointed out; some idols are not necessarily bad things, “but left unchecked can become trouble in our life.” I always feel like I have to succeed and that time is ticking away, that life is passing me by. Some of it I get from seeing these young actors, singers, etc… on tv just soaring to these lavish titles and positions.

I want to be successful and I would like to be famous or well known, but are these desires of the flesh? I feel like my desire to succeed when put in the right context and for the purpose of the kingdom is a good thing, but to desire to be famous…not so much. Erwin McManus once asked, “do you want to be famous or do you want to be great?” What’s the line?  I see all these famous faces on tv and I want to roll with them and live like they do. This is my confession, I think I have lost track of what life is really about. I don’t know, I hope that by working through this with God through prayer I can discover the true meaning of GREAT.  I pray that through Pete’s series, this blog, prayer with God, prayer from friends/family, support from you all…I can discover how to get out of this crisis, how to balance success and allow God to work on my heart when it comes to fame.

What Tracy morgan and I have in common.

There is a scene in the movie “cop out” where Tracy Morgan is pretending to be “the falsely accused victim” in order to get information out of the bad guy, he even goes so far as to quote every action movie he can possibly think of. His character  isn’t a very good “victim” in this scene and resorts to playing other people and personalities that are not his own.  this scene is absolutely hilarious but strikes a nerve for me today. Earlier today I was called out by a close mentor, he said that sometimes I play into the “victim mentality.” Sometimes I feel that I don’t know what else to do so I start quoting and saying what everyone else who is frustrated and upset about their job is saying. I too don’t play the “victim” very well.

Sometimes the job we are working, bosses, pay, etc… suck, but does it give us the excuse to complain and whine about it? Sometimes we need to be humbled, and other times we simply need to stop complaining and do something about it. At this point I have played the “victim” long enough. I haven’t decided how to handle frustrations at work, I’m not sure if I should try to find a different career right now, or if I should stick it out for a few months. Sometimes the best thing to do is take a deep breath, sit back, and remember it’s not all about me….I am gonna pray, I hope you’ll pray with me for wisdom and guidance in my career choices.

Spring to fall or is it fell and sprung?

First of all I am not “sprung” easy my “big butt” lovers. Just as the season is changing, my life has taken a similar path. A month ago I had an apartment lined up in Florida, now I live in Tennessee and am scrambling to find an apartment in Nashville. My future bride and I prayed, talked and struggled through a difficult question….”do we want better?” Ash and I decided to take a huge risk and lay it all on the line and move to a completely different state.

If you want better……pray, YES… hard, YES…..but……make the effort…..give God something to work with….not only have faith move out on it.

do yourself a favor and take that leap of faith.

3D you finally beat me.

Ok so I was completely against the whole 3D movement since the beginning, until the other day. My nephew wanted to go see “how to train your dragon,” it was absolutely hilarious, and the 3D made me feel like I was actually in the movie. I watched my nephew sit with a huge tub of popcorn on his lap and big ol’ 3D glasses just chuckie cheese smiling. He looked over to me in concern and wanted to make sure I would be ok because I get motion sickness and he wanted to be sure I would make it. HAHAHA kids are awesome.

  • The movie was really funny and had some great life lessons in it, I recommend it to all families and I warn you 3D is truly addicting….However get read to pay $14  a ticket…..they need to lower that for real!!!!!

So I believe that the Movie theatre industry was hurting pretty bad, but they have discovered a way to dig out of the whole…..Get more kids to beg their parents to go to the movies. It really is genius and looking at it from the marketing aspect, the Theatre industry has hit a gold mine. Movie prices have constantly been on the rise the question is will the new found revenue in 3D movies make them greedy, break even, or will they finally lower prices again????